Realization...

I had deleted a post about closing my blog that I had posted recently. After going through the blog, I realised that this blog had been with me throughout the good and bad times. I should cherish it and keep it as a memory. Although I may not be writing as much I intended, I will still keep it and update things when I have the time.

Right now, I have so much dilemmas in my life; waiting for my decision. I do not know what I should do or which road to take. A conversation with a friend of mine had made me realised that I was not the only one with these problems. It was truly a remarkable feeling being able to share my problem with someone who understand from my point of view. (you know who you are *wink*)

It is difficult sometimes when I am trying to make decision to please everyone but not myself. My dear had offered me a chance to do something that could change my life if it is successful but it seems no one seems to believe me, let alone supporting me. I felt so crappy but what else can I do. I'm too young to think about my future? Maybe..but it's not early anymore. My final exam is going to be in less than 4 weeks from now. I do not want to be stuck here doing what I do not like at all after that. Maybe God has plan for me but the position I am in now, I am truly miserable.

If I had the chance to do all over again, I would have chosen a different path for my studies. I realise so much aspects in my life in one year. But I never regretted going to Curtin because I would have never met people that had helped me gone through so many rough and good times in my coming 4 years there. Of course, I would have never met my dear who is the love of my life.

I believe that I had grown up to think more of my future rather than those happy years where I just have to live day by day. Realization had me a stronger... I should not bow down to these challenges in life...The day when I finally felt I had accomplish something in my life, I'll let you know. ;) For now, we'll just have to wait and see how it goes...

"There is no happiness except in the realization that we have accomplished something."

-Henry Ford

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they are to success when they gave up."

-Thomas Edison

Pore Strip...

I have watched this on youtube and I thought it was pretty interesting. So, I tried it. It works on me. BUUUTT....there is a disadvantage though. It smells weird. It smelt like burned milk..if you know what I mean. But other than that, it works. It also can work as wax also as it could pull out small facial hairs. Not all, but it could pull out some. Try sit in air conditioned room or have fan blowing at your face to speed up the drying process. haha.. Just to share my experience with this method. TRY~~It's fun :D

random...

I hadn't post anything for quite sometimes. This post is going to to messy and random cause I'm so blur at the moment so bear with me yeah? :P Was kinda busy with work lately. Plus dear came to Miri to visit me for few days. I enjoyed every moment I spent with him. I really miss having him around. It definitely felt different with him around. We went to Batu Niah and we finally went for buffet that we had been talking about. Writing this is starting to get me all teary eyes. I really wish you were here dear... *sorry bout getting all emo but yeah I am emo at the moment*

If you keep up with my facebook, I did promoter work for maxis during the PC fair in Miri. Met many friends and I really had a great time working. They were a bunch of funny people and I am glad I signed up for it :) I also did some volunteer work for St. Co concert few days back for the weekend. They had fashion show and I was among a people that helped the models changed their clothes. Pretty hectic stuff but yet had glad that I was able to help. I met with several ex school mates there. Had not met them for a long time and we did a a short catch up session at Sajian Warisan after the concert.

Classes started last week and time flies really slow. I really do not have the mood to discuss about my studies although yes, I am glad that I passed all units last semester. I only had 3 units left to graduate. I wonder where I would be 4-5 months from now. *haih* Heavy stuff to think about.

Originally I was happy and wanting to post picture of me wearing contact lens. I do not have eye sight problem but I just wear it to make my eyes bigger. I liked the effects :).....I might get other colour the next time around. It is not really expensive also with RM40 lasting for 3 months. I won't be wearing it to classes but maybe for other occasion like dinner or something. Plus I got my hair dyed...

messy hair...haha

See the difference?? My eyes are bigger...KAwaii~~~ LOL

and yeah.... my new bag from espirit.. I'm liking it :)

then come the bad news, my dear dear gave me his old SE phone to use and all of the sudden the keypad gone nuts and wouldn't function at all. Guess I do not have luck ei? I might get it fixed these few days. Hopefully it's not expensive though :-/ if not my salary will direct gone to fixing the phone..

That's all for now.... till then, have a great week ahead :) Cheers!

MoMo

MoMo had officially died today. I did not expect it but then again it happened. So whatever happened to it, I really don't know. I only realized that it is dead around noon today before going for lunch with my mum. I hope it is by far not my fault. *No pic of the dead fish - I have to respect it i guess*

Anyway, I told my mum and she asked me to buy a new one to replace MoMo so MiMi would not be alone. Here it is... I chose this one because its fins are similar to MiMi's. The colour is still blue..

Hope this one last longer ....:D

update update!

Sorry ladies and gentlemen that I have broken my promise to blog but I was pretty lazy then and only up till now then I could find the time to blog. Well, if you have my facebook, you can pretty much guessed what am I up to these few days/weeks.

So in May alone I went Kuching twice. First is for my cousin, Verona's wedding. I really enjoyed myself there and I got the chance becoming the bridesmaid although not the maid of honour. I was glad that finally I got the chance to see one of my many cousin's wedding and had first hand experiencing it. So I hope there are more to come.. maybe not my cousin's but my friends'. Haha. *I'm hinting you guys wink*

Anyway, congratulation to Nana and Fred. Wish both of you a happy beginning of new chapter of your life.

I went Kuching for about 5 days and during that time I got the chance to spend some quality time with my dear dear. He took off days to bring me around Kuching and we had enjoyable day there. Went to the beach and went for movies. He even brought me to eat my favourite ojian. Not bad. This was really an opportunity for us because we had not got much time spend together other than on the phone. I really missed him alot. So it was really a great way to meet him. Thank you dear for everything. I love you! *muaks*

Few days after I came back from Kuching, came the unexpected news that my grandmother had passed away. My family and I were shocked by the news but yet are happy for her that she no longer suffer as she was bed ridden for several months before. Thanks for the prayers and thoughts that you guys might given her. After I came back from the funeral, I had start revising for my finals. It was pretty intense studying cos I need to catch whatever topics that I had left out during the semester - that means all the topic cause I am a very lazy and unorganise person when it comes to studying. Haha. So after the final exam, my friends and I had organised farewell celebration for Karen and Casey. On separate occasion though.

During these few years, I can finally found few friends that I had fun hanging out with (you know who you are :D) It has been a while since I actually felt that way. It was really fun being around those girls. They had been a source of inspiration for me that I should not lose hope in friendship when I encountered unexpected challenges. Eventhough sometimes we felt unhappy with certain decisions made but we got over it soon enough and we were talking again like nothing had happened. This really felt like true friends. We had many common things and attitude that made us clicked. Although there were distance between us now, I believe we would definitely meet again soon and we would had much fun time again like we had for the past months. It would take along time to summarize what I think about you guys so In short, I will cherished the memories that we had for this short period of time and I am really glad that I had met you girls. I guess I am not the only person who felt the same. :D


I dedicate this song to those girls that made a difference in my life...



Till then, have a great day ahead!~Happy holiday :)

Rest in Peace...

Hey guys, I intended to update the things I did last weekend when I was at kuching but something came up so I have to postpone it for a while, so be patient yeah? My facebook has lots of pictures so you can have a look there. Anyway, I have to go to Kuching again this weekend because my grandma just passed away. She is 90 years old this year. So please do pray for her and may she rest in peace. Will update when I return one week later.

I likey~~~

This a very intense colour but it shows how to do makeup for monolids and double eyelids.. Really creative...:)



I'm definitely doing this for my cousin's wedding. Or this maybe...



I'm not sure~~ Haha.. Help me make my decision~~ it's so nice...